Tuesday, May 10, 2016

May 10th....The Light at the End of the Tunnel

Wow, here it is May 10th already!  I only have two more radiation treatments to go, and then I will be DONE!   I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, and I certainly hope it isn't a freight train!   It has gone by so quickly.  I’m sure that is because I haven’t really felt too bad.  I clearly remember that day last August when I was diagnosed.  It was a whirlwind.  I remember going to see the Oncologist, and when she told me my treatment plan, I thought “20 weeks of chemo!!!  35 radiation treatments!!!!   How will I ever get through all of that?  It is going to be a very long, awful year!”   You know what, it has been scary, but it has been wonderful at the same time.  Wonderful in that I have felt so loved and cared for by so many people.   Wonderful in that I really knew what was important during this time.  Wonderful in that I had the treatments available to help me beat this!  I really look back at the last 9 months and I think that this “journey” has made me a better person.   At least I sure hope so.  I know I have learned a lot of lessons.  I have learned to slow down and appreciate each day!!  Sometimes we get so busy with life, we forget to HAVE a life.

I had a wonderful Mother’s Day, but I can’t help feel sad that Nathan isn’t with us.   I can honestly say that there isn’t one single day that he doesn’t pop into my head at least a dozen times.   Now though, I do smile at the memories, even though they do still hurt.

Most of you have seen that we will be having a new addition to the family in October!  Steff and Austin are expecting a baby this fall, and I am so thrilled.   What a great way to celebrate LIVING, adding a new grand baby.

I really don’t know exactly where I am headed in this journey we call life.  I DO know that I appreciate it more now.   I also feel that I am being called, somehow, to show people how important it is to take care of ourselves, and that getting cancer doesn’t have to be a death sentence.  I’ve got lots of ideas milling around in my head……..I hope that they don’t collide in there and cause any damage!

Thank you, everyone, for all of the love and support you have shown me!