I think this is my last "unpublished" blog post. I saved it in drafts and I just saw it tonight. I really didn't have the hang of this when I started, and I guess I was a little distracted :) I wrote this in August, 2 weeks after my cancer diagnosis.
Wow. Talk about changes! Two weeks ago I was a healthy, happy woman trying to pull the most out of the last few weeks of summer. I know, technically, summer doesn't end until sometime in September. But, for me, it ends at the end of August. I love summer. I love the heat. I love golfing in the heat. I love swimming in the heat. I just love summer.
Now, two weeks later I am facing a battle that could take my life. I have no plans of letting it win. I plan to fight this thing like I have never fought before. I will be journaling my fight here. I will be posting other things here, but I really think that recording my feelings during this fight will be helpful. Hopefully, it will be helpful to other women facing the same battle. Or anyone facing a life threatening illness. You can't just sit back and feel sorry for yourself and say "why me?" I asked that. I eat healthy, I don't smoke, I haven't drank much in my lifetime, I exercise every day. How could this happen to me and WHY? Well, why NOT me? Cancer doesn't discriminate. It just happens.
I am scared, but I also have peace. God has given me the tools to fight this. My healthy physical condition will help me so much as I face a very rough treatment schedule. I will continue to eat healthy, drink my Shakelogy (with my Oncologist's blessing), and I will continue to exercise. I will listen to my body. If it is telling me to stay in bed that day, I will. If it is telling me I can go for a walk, I will. I know that it will be beneficial to me physically and mentally to MOVE. It will release those endorphins that I will desperately need.
I promise I will talk about other things besides cancer here on my blog. There is so much more to me than that. It doesn't define me and it will NOT beat me.